A few thoughts...
The older I get, the more I have to fight my urges. It's like I'm reverting into a child. I'm sitting on the subway and a guy stands in front of me, his crotch just about a foot away from my face, and I find myself thinking 'how ducking easy would it be for me to just reach up and stroke him? Would it turn him on? Would he freak out? What is a normal human response to that?' And I have to actively remind myself, no you can't fucking do that. Or I'll notice an attractive woman next to me. And all I want to do is lean over and snuggle myself into her shoulder, nibble on her ear, hold her.
How is this happening as I age? Isn't that more of a thing teenagers do?
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